I found the pill last October after 20 years as a Blue Pill/Beta and a life and later marriage living on egg shells. I spent the time after last year and early this year unplugging, reading/converting, joining a gym, wardrobe change, and starting to learn martial arts. I'm fitter now and the best version of my self I've been in 15 years. I'm happy with myself for the first time ever.

I don't live on egg shells anymore, I don't react to wife's whiplash emotional storms and general BS, we rarely fight now.

But, I'm not the RP man I should be. The old me had a real problem with lack of sex and her saying no. As I unplugged I realized a lot of that was about validation rather than sex. The tables have turned now, now its me turning her down, I don't need her validation. I don't game her even though I should.

Its an aweful truth but now I see her and us through red pill eyes I just don't want to. I'm not angry at her at all, don't blame her.

I think I'm becoming Jaded. Any advice?