Looking for some perspective on a couple of things that happened this past week.
tl;dr - Gone on camping trip for the week with no contact. Wife sends affectionate texts and then fucks me after 9 months as soon as I get back. Why now? and many shit tests after.
Been posting in OYS for a while now but missed last week since I was on my annual camping trip with my brother and my two oldest boys. This is a traditional camping trip that I have been doing for 20 years now but started doing with my boys for the past 5. I have explained to them why my brother and I do it. Mainly, kids today don't know any struggles. They want for nothing. Everything is disposable. This trip if nothing else gets them out of the screens and lets them see the real world for a week. During this trip we canoe down river for 3 days taking all our gear with us and pull over in the evening to camp. We have 3 days to go 30 miles on the river. We fish, talk about life and just focus on nature. It is hands down the best bonding experience I have with my boys and my brother. We force them to take care of their own gear and camp site. It is great and we always end the trip with a steak feast at the local steakhouse near where we get out of the water.
So this trip is 5 days long. There is very limited cell coverage, if any at all. My SO is at home alone with our youngest (not old enough to go yet). When my phone comes into coverage there are a couple texts from my wife saying how she wishes she could have come cause it always sounds so much fun. First, no way in hell. My wife can camp but this is my thing with my boys and she knows this. Not to mention we've been doing it for years without a peep of her wanting to come along. About the 3rd day when I get a signal I get good morning, love you texts. I haven't gotten one of these in months. I text back when I can with updates but am mostly radio silent simply because there is no coverage. Her texts are progressively more cheerful as the week goes on. Finally, we get out of the water on the last day and I send her an update that everyone is alive and good. SHe responds back that she cant wait to see the boys and is glad we are all good.
We all get home from the trip on Saturday and are disgusting. Havent showered in 3 days, beard stubble, stink, smell like camp fires and wet clothes. I pull in and start unloading the car with the boys. She was at the store and rolls in 15 minutes later. She gets out smiles at me but I dont run over and get all in her shit as I would in the past. I keep unloading the car. She comes over to me and I give her a big 10 second kiss. She comments on the stink but laughs and goes into see the boys. I finish unpacking.
After completely unloading, getting everything squared away and starting laundry I roll upstairs to shower. She is sitting on the edge of the bed looking at her phone. I roll in and we start talking. She goes to stand up and I push her back down on the bed and jump on her stink and all and just start kissing her neck etc. She doesnt stop me. Now, I have been in deadbedroom for 9 months so inside my head I am like ok when is the hard no coming. I smell like Bigfoots asshole and I wouldnt even fuck me. She doesnt stop me. I raise her ass up to take her pants off and she says something about the kids. I stand up close the door, lock it and take my pants off right there and pull hers off as well. I proceed to cave man her and she is giggling about how bad I smell but at the same time cumming. I even reach up and start choking her as I am fucking her and she leans into it!! I end by cumming in her, hopping up and jumping in the shower. She literally passes out on the bed and when I get out she is still laying there in the same spot in bed.
Now I could tell afterward though that she immediately went back to her cold self. I was going to my buddies 40th birthday party that night. Normally I would have bailed after the trip and stayed home with her but I didn't. I went and had a good time but was getting shit test texts all night. Yesterday I tried to initiate in the morning and got a "it was so long since we fucked, I am sore as hell", I just smirked at her and went and lifted. I was getting shit tested the rest of the day and I just did yard work I had planned on and STFU.
So I guess my hamster or logical side is getting the best of me. Why now did she decide to fuck after 9 months? I can clearly see that she is shit testing me to see if she made the right choice. I am also guessing all the love you good morning texts were her hamster kicking in with all the alone time on her hands.