X thing happened
Went to pick up rental car with wife. It wasn't the car we needed for the trip because I reserved the one she bitched about instead of the one I knew was right.
I felt X
Anger. At myself. For having been a pussy who would do what a woman wants just because she bitched about it. (Reservation was made several months ago pre current progress.)
I got to the car, saw it wouldn't comfortably fit the people we are meeting and would still guzzle fuck tons of gas regardless. We needed a VAN - not an SUV. I pointed that out to her without blame (waste of my energy) and then walked back to the rental car counter while she acts up and tries to shame me into doing the wrong thing by attempting to embarrass me in public. She failed. Bonus was that the clerk was a woman.
This was good/bad/ inconsequential in retrospect because:
Good because we got the vehicle that was required for the task at hand. I ended up having to pay more for it because of the change. Lessons cost money. Especially marriage ending lessons but that's an established fact.
Later she says "I'm sorry if you're sorry" and I reply "I'm not sorry" and she says "you don't think you have anything to be sorry about?"
I say "no" She says "then I take it back" I say "good, are you done now? Let's go"
I think the root cause is (insert your failure here)
I changed my mind to please a woman back when I made the reservation. It's plastered all over The Way of The Superior Man but maybe I hadn't fully internalized it until now. If you're new, do NOT read that book first. Start with Blue Pill Professors book or Book of Pook.
Plans moving forward:
Make god damned sure I am doing what ever the fuck I want while taking my first mate's opinion into account but never blindly following it like a faggot who wants a blow job from mommy.
Given how big a fuck tard I was even 6 months ago. I know I handled this damn well. 6 months ago, I might have done what she wanted just so I could escape the unwarranted shame and berate her about it the whole time and then wonder why she wasn't DTF.
Honestly I would not have mentioned this at all because I try to own my shit these days but at the suggestion of /u/Scurvemuch and given the flood of weak ass posts here, I thought it would be a worthy contribution.