Every time I meet a girl and discover her N count I'm absolutely beside myself. The anger phase always rears it's ugly head and I'll feel a whole range of emotion from sadness, and disappointment, to anger. All very blue pill emotions, but fuck it. It's how I feel, can't change that.

Anyways, how can I come to terms with myself? How do I cope with the shock?

Most recently I'm talking to a girl who's not even 18 and she's allready fucked 15 dudes since freshman year! That's alot of dick!

I know why I'm angry though. It has nothing to do with girls being slutty. It has to do with the fact that I'm in my mid twenty's and only recently lost my virginity. I know it's wrong to dwell on the past but sweet lord.. I missed out on so many sluts. Can't change that. Gotta look ahead.