A Thank You, and a little background
(Skip to The Ocurrence if you want to)
I would like to start off by thanking you guys for all the progress I've made as a Man.
I'm 19 years old, my birthday was 4 days ago and I discovered TheRedPill last October, funnily enough, by clicking random in reddit and ending up right here in this subreddit.
I was never a shy or ugly kid, actually, I would consider myself a very extrovert person, I have a lot of friends, went partying, girls flirted with me and last year I was school president (that's kind of a big deal where I live, I don't know what status the school president has in the USA), so I got to be a leader, learn a little bit about leadership and how to deal with all kinds of people.
Growing up though, I had a father that paid little to no interest to me, he would beat me every now and then, sometimes with a fair reason, but others he just needed to take his anger on someone. He would never teach me anything, most things, like shaving going fishing, I had to learn by myself with the help of the internet, so how cool is that the way I learned to deal with girls was with the help of you guys?
Well, on the other hand I have my mother, overprotective, but other times she would simply turn off, I would say things like what stuff happened at school and she would ignore. I'm not mad at my parents for the actions they had with me growing up, both of them had a really rough upbringing, so I learnt not to take anything to heart.
One day I called out my dad, because everytime we discussed anything at the dinner table, he would eventually say something wrong, someone would point it out, he would get angry and every night ended up in discussion. It was months after discovering and learning the red pill. What did I say? I pointed out how he would never listen to no one and keep saying the same stuff over and over again, and then it snowballed into how he had failed me as a father, how he wouldn't be a leader to the family and how wrong it was to have beat me for no apparent reason at all. What happened after? It was the first time I watched my dad almost cry, he broke down, he said that by next Monday he would sell the house and go live on his own, and we went our ways to bed.
The next day my mom came to talk to me, she said that the discussion I had with my father affected him really positively, that he was really proud of me, and she was too, because all the stuff I said was really mature and it made them realize that I've grown up, and ever since then they act like different people, now joking around with me, asking about my day, overall treating me very well and that made me very happy.
Going back to the Red Pill philosophy
My actual problem? I had a very BluePill mindset, thought that by being kind and sweet, a girl would instantly fall in love with me, there were actually times, with the same girl, I would act a certain way and she would be all over me, and then when I showed interest by being extremely kind, would be rejected.
Virgin but not kissless, still didn't know how to makeout, and then I found this sub.
As soon I started to read some of your posts, something clicked, and then I read some more posts, started applying what I would learn here, and then 2 months after discovering it, I was consistently making out and no longer than a week later I wasn't a virgin anymore.
THE LTR IN QUESTION
At the time I was actively gaming 2 girls in my school, but ended up LTRing one of the girls, for 3 reasons.
1º - Didn't want to shit where I ate by risking ending up with a bad reputation if one of them discovered I was fooling around with the other
2º - The girl I choose was really submissive, cared for me a lot, would do anything I said with a smile on her face, and ending up earning my commitment
3º - I thought to myself "I know this is a mistake by TRP standarts, but eventually when this girl breaks my heart, I going to experience something I need to grow up, a hardship, and future stuff I mess up with won't feel as bad, and I'm young so I need to make mistakes".
One thing though, I entered the relationship knowing full well I was going to eventually break up with her, because one of my objetives in life is to serve in the Army, and in under no circumstance I would do a LDR.
What proceeded were 8 months of bliss, no hiccup, full of sex, hanging out with her, having the time of my life, really, the time when I went to her house, she made me lunch and then we fucked all afternoon to finish it with her swallowing my load and telling me that she was really happy, when all I had to do was be handsome and say something funny at the right time, was when I told myself "I really need to thank TRP one day for everything they allowed me to experience". When my birthday came she actually gave me a lot of stuff, my favorite chips, candy, a sweatshirt, a tshirt, and then we fooled around all night, so long as my parents didn't hear.
So here it goes, I fucking owe my life to you guys, you really thought me how to become more stoic, get girls, mantain myself, actually having goals and acting on making them a reality, if not for that lucky random press I don't know how my life would be today, but sure as hell wouldn't be as cool it is today. I'm really fucking lucky, and a huge thank you to you all that contribute to this amazing philosophy, from the ones who actually make posts to the ones that lurk and only upvote, you guys changed me in the most positive way.
IF YOU SKIPPED, RESUME HERE
Throughout all of the life of the LTR, nothing abnormal happened, until today.
There was this guy that was never her boyfriend, I don't know what happened between them, but both of them liked each other and he did something that hurt her and they stopped talking to each other. It was a long time ago, but he was significant. Today I saw in her social media page (I don't have a social media, only Messenger) that she did a game where it made people guess what she said was true or not, people had to like and the question was secret, this guy liked and answered "It wasn't with intention but true". It was obviously about what happened between them. I thought just by sending this guy a message she already faulted me, but I waited if she actually told me something about this ocurrence.
We met up, started talking about normal stuff, and she mentioned that a friend of ours did a game that she found really funny, and the question she got was really funny, I said "Oh cool, that seems like a good game, did you end up doing it yourself?", she answered "I wanted to but no". This bitch was lying straight to my face.
We got home, caught her deleting stuff in her phone, took a glance at the messages and funnily enough she deleted her conversation with the guy, she didn't notice I saw everything and I didn't say anything, I was noticeably different, she asked if anything was wrong. "No, why?", I answered, but everytime she talked I would either be looking away, or looking at her with a really serious face, saying nothing. After a long time of this treatment she asked "Was it something I said?" and eventually started crying. She then said "Was it about the game? I talked to this person and that person, I said I didn't do it but I mistook it by another game, is that it?", all while not mentioning this guy, I said no to that as well.
She was supposed to have dinner, but gave her an excuse and she left earlier, and when she was leaving I kissed her goodbye with a smile and then I shifted to the most disgusted face I could do, leaving her looking at me really sad while I closed the door to her face. To be honest, the act I did at home was really funny, because I dropped hints that she wasn't going to see me again, and she would get really preoccupied that something was gonna happen, and immediately after I would confort her.
Still haven't blocked her, or said anything to her, or my parents, but my biggest fear is that either my mom or her mom calls the other for us to get back again as soon they know the news. Sad because I really liked her mother and her father, and I'm not going to hang out with them anymore.
TL:DR Caught LTR deleting her text conversation with her past significant other about this stupid game, all while lying straight to my face that she didn't do the game only to hours later to admit doing it, all while still not mentioning this guy.
1º - Will/Did I overreact?
2º - I'm really itching to get her to admit to talking to this guy, I know that when you break up with a girl you should never give her a straight explanation, but I really want to hear her words when she finally confesses, and soon after that I'm gonna block her in everything, that if 1º enables that, is what I'm doing something wrong?
3º - If 1º goes the obvious way, How can I prevent our parents talking to each other so we can go back together?
3º.1 - Should I even tell my parents that I broke up with her, since she belonged for a while, and they might make plans with her included?
UPDATE: On my reply to /u/Sylvester_Sterone I talk about how my parents reacted to the news.
4º - I already threw away the pictures of us I had in my room (She gave them 4 days ago funnily enough), plan on blocking her in all ways possible, and any pictures of us in my phone, is there anything I should do to move on faster?
MY OWN ADVICE TO GUYS NEW HERE (SKIP IF YOU WANT TO)
- Don't dwell on your virginity so much, I saw myself losing and risking my school grades because all I could think of was how sex would be like and when I was going to finally pop the cherry, yeah sex is cool, but I can assure you that after my first time, I entered the bus on my way home and thought "This isn't such a big fucking deal, is this really what I have been thinking all of my teenage years?"
- The girl can have a shitload of greenflags, but as soon a redflag appears it's over, yeah I'm not going to lie, there were times I thought that this girl could be the mother of my kids, I really fucking liked hanging out with her, but in the end she failed and I had to move on, because if I didn't move on, that redflag WILL grow into something worse and it gives you no advantage.
- AWALT, I still don't know where I failed, sometimes stuff fail because they aren't under your control, there are other variables besides you, but I'm sure I wasn't the most alpha guy for this to have happened so I move on to...
- Keep on learning and applying TheRedPill, just because you read some posts doesn't mean you know everything about the nature of women, in fact, there are other extremely important stuff on the subreddit besides girls, something I really do appreciate about this sub.
- In the end, the only person who will stick with you through everything, is you, invest in yourself and improve yourself, because there is no one who (should) care more about you than yourself.