I met a girl with good values, so I broke up with her and got with the new girl. Everything was fine with the new girl, she was honest, not as emotional, loves to laugh and is drug-free, which are the biggest reasons I broke up with my girlfriend. The only drawback with the new girl is she has a kid and the sex isn't really as frequent or as good as with my girlfriend.

Yesterday I found out that while we were broken up, my girlfriend was talking to a fuckton of guys and girls on tinder. She fucked 2 in one day and one the next day. I was fine up until I found all of this out. When I found out, I crumbled emotionally. I'll admit that I wasn't completely over her. We even fucked a couple times while I was with the new girl. When I found out, I was angry and disgusted with her lack of self-respect and just how fast she opened her legs for guys she met online. She says that she doesn't see it as her disrespecting herself, but "taking control" of the situation. She was sending nudes to random dudes on tinder but barely sent nudes when we were together. She says that when I broke up with her she was in agony and she did it because she was mad at me and to numb herself. She took a nosedive when I broke up with her. She started smoking weed heavily, I had gotten her to quit while we were together. I feel like such a weak pussy for accepting her back.

The new girl would never do anything like this in 10 lifetimes. She holds me to such a high regard and talks about me as if I'm some kind of mythical figure instead of a normal guy. I had sex with my girlfriend last night because even though I was mad and hurt, I felt insecure. I asked her all the intimate details of her encounters with these guys and she told me. Cuck move, I know but I was trying to numb myself. In the end I asked her to be my girlfriend, but I kind of feel like she enjoyed what she was doing. Before I asked her if she wants to stay together, I asked her how long she plans on fucking multiple guys at the same time and she said until the summertime. I feel like I'm a fucking pussy for taking her back knowing that she has options in the few swipes of a finger the minute something goes wrong but I'm too fucked up emotionally to let her go. I have a new girl that's great besides sex. What the fuck is wrong with me and what do I do? How can I surpress my emotions enough to see things clearly, because honestly, I feel like I'm playing myself.