Hi y’all.

Lately I’ve been feeling down on myself. I feel like no matter what I do, I will never be good enough for my boyfriend. He never does anything to make me feel this way lately. In the past (about 4 years ago) I didn’t lift weights or take care of myself and he was very clear, voicing his opinion that he was really too good for me in every way. Since then I changed up my wardrobe a lot, my body is hot as fire because of my gym and diet, and I in general take better care of myself by far.

I am still extremely insecure and self conscious, even though he recently called me “beautiful” for the first time ever in six years.

I’m honestly so upset for some reason, I cried when he called me beautiful because all this time, I wished he thought I was but I knew deep down he didn’t want to lie to me and tell me he thought I was.

Now he thinks I’m beautiful because I turned myself beautiful. I’ve never got hit on more in my life but now I expect it when I go out alone because it happens every time, yet my confidence is still extremely terrible. I cry every other day because of how ugly I feel on the inside, yet girls tell me they wish they looked like me.... but they don’t know how I actually feel. I feel the exact same way that they do. They think it’s all pansies and perfect to look the way I do, but don’t understand that the only reason I ever lifted weights was because I felt ugly.

Now I look so much better, my bf has changed his opinion on my looks, yet I feel so inadequate and just the same way as before.

I feel like no man would ever want me because I have psoriasis and honestly, I’ve cried on my bf about how I feel so inadequate and he always says the right stuff to try and make me feel better but... I just want to find confidence within myself instead of from him. How can I do this?

Please help. I don’t want to bother my bf with my confidence issues anymore, it’s not a good look.