gentlemen, i graduated with highest paying job in my batch, started lifting 3 years ago, i'm in decent shape but i'm of modest height, i had a hot gf in my junior year, who i nexted because she was dragging me down ( i am work obessed kinda guy) and developed a oneitis for after which she fucked 4 guys, i only finger fucked her ( i was alpha / beta combo without knowing hence the onitis and i'm still a virgin)

By junior year i had won thousands of dollars, and finished ahead of my entire batch. i'm doing good in every other aspect of my life except women. i have read the side bar , gone to clubs, kino, PUAs, keeping frame god damn it i've tried everything

but i still mess up..

after doing it over and over and over again

i still mess up

for instance,

today i went bowling with my mates, i was sitting in a bright red shirt with a badass pair of chelseas, the biggest IDGAF attitude you could come across , looking into my phone while the boys were trying to hit stikes in the alley, when my chance comes i simply get up hit a strike come back to my seat and into my phone again while they stare and awe and what just happend

Hot girl who had come with us notices, she leaves the guy she has come with and after some back and forth asks me my hobbies and my number. later in the night all of us meet at a club to watch football

the guy she was with is cockblocking i leave and tell them i'm going elsewhere and tell her and the guy to join me there, they come after 10 mins (probably her idea), its too crowded i get her alone and open my mouth and god damn it i should never open my mouth, i start talking to her about her hobbies and what she likes and bore the fuck out of her, after some time she asks me "where is the guy i came with...."

i messed up, yet again, its clear as day i was gonna ask her out but i blew it, its not gonna happen again.

i've read the rational male, 48 laws of power, corey waynes books, half the red pill archive for fucks sake i've gone into the field and gotten rejected a zillion times, boy if i tell you the stories you're gonna have a field day

i can't do this anymore. i think i'm gonna focus on the other things i'm good at, like not giving a shit about relationships and just work. i just lift and work and lift and work

I'm frustrated, i'm an AFC right now. i'm done

if you have anything better to tell me than to shut the fuck up and man up or read the side bar please tell me, else don't bother

I give up on women its too much work and i can't do this anymore i'm done

Thanks for reading