And I put many through a lot myself..

However, I’m walking away from a relationship traumatized. This woman:

1) Claimed that I should value her opinion over my mom’s(there’s nothing that indicates I value my mom’s opinion to any extreme degree as my mom disapproves of my clothes, beard, diet, tattoos, activities etc.)

2) Almost convinced me that I’m a Narcissist, and I’m not entirely sure still. I was diagnosed with Bipolar 2 years ago, so sometimes I do have Narcissistic traits.

3) Bullied me into giving up any privacy. I was 100% loyal, and despite this; I constantly handed my phone over, shared passwords, location, etc. Further, I’d still get bitched at if she thinks something was out of the ordinary.

4) Befriended people interconnected with my social group, and then proceeded to smear-campaign over any disagreement.

5) Resorts to physical violence, knowing she’s safe as a small female. She never hit me or anything, but she will pick up a 4lb glass candle and load it back. I have no choice but to cower because I can’t physically retaliate or reason with her.

Guys, I don’t blame any of this on her at all. Not because she didn’t do anything wrong, but because I tempted her. I did the equivalent of going to a party naked and drunk, except I was sober and in love. I allowed everything to occur how it did.

What I do blame her for, I don’t want to say is because she’s female but because she’s human..

I’m not a part of MGTOW but I’m seeing that I have a calling, I believe I’m being pulled to be a “man going his own way”..