I drunk texted him last night asking where this was going (it’s been almost 2 months and he hasn’t really tried to see me). While I was texting with him I got a text from my ex bf saying he wanted to die. I have not spoken to this guy in some time and we were together for several years so I talked to him and gave him some advice which he expressed a lot of gratitude for. I told the current guy what was going on and he lost his shit and said he had no words and was going to bed. This morning I texted him to let him know I had no feelings for anyone but him and that I’m just an open book and that’s why I shared what was going on with him. Well he wrote back later and said dating me is out now but that he makes a “great friend”. He also said that he could not and did not want to reply to the stuff going on in my life (very little really, he’s being super insecure) and therefore he’s done with me.

I replied that I was hurt by being rejected for things in my life beyond my control and that I didn’t need more friends and wished him well. I told him I was deleting his contact info and to please not contact me. I’ll be fine and keep writing (I’m working on a book and poetry and he asked me to keep going with that). I then went and deleted his contact info, the convo we’ve had for almost two months and all the videos he sent me - it’s all gone. I told him I would not bother him with my baggage anymore (all it was was that ex texting me because I’m the only person he could ever open up to), and I said I would not validate his sister’s claim that “all women are crazy” but that I will say that some men are far too insecure to form bonds with women. Truthfully wished him the best and wrote that guy write off.

No tears. My intuition was trying to tell me something from the get-go about him. 51 and never married and yet he’s tall, cute enough and highly successful. I have zero way to contact him now and that’s the best thing for me. Let him miss me and contact me, which he probably will (they all do), bet he feels like shit already. So tired of these emotionally unavailable men. Good lord. But I feel so proud of myself for erasing this guy from my life without hesitation. Stay strong, ladies! Not sleeping with him surely helped. Wait a few months. After a few months you will see a much clearer picture. And if you think something might be a red flag, it probably is one!