So I'm a 20 M from India, I need someone to hear me out.

I met a girl at a coffee shop recently and asked her out over social media. She said yes and we went out on one date, it went reasonably well and we planned the second date as well. We planned to go out again this sunday and she sent a message now saying she's going out with her friends. Now, I really want to believe her and take what she says at face value. But I'm having a bad feeling that she's avoiding me indirectly. I've been betrayed by tons and tons of people so I find it impossible to trust people. Whenever anyone says something, I automatically assume they're lying. My childhood was bad too. My dad was a workaholic and my mom was abusive (threatened to leave me when I was 5, threatened to send me to a hostel when I was 8-9, etc) and my mom and other relatives repeatedly betrayed by trust every fucking time.

Even though she said she's interested in me, she didn't ask one question during the date and almost never initiates a conversation over text.

She's also hid her Instagram stories. Knew that because her Instagram highlights were gone (went to her account to see her dog's photo). She frequently posts a lot of stories, so yeah I believe my suspicions are valid. People do these things only when they're hiding something. She typically takes 4-5 hours to reply. We both are busy individuals, yes. We both have individual lives, yes. But when you're interested in someone you text them actually. She agreed to go out again the coming Monday and I'm almost sure she's gonna flake again. Also, i want to believe that we both have the same issues. She has trust issues, anxiety,OCD, etc. just like me. We share a similar past as well. She survived a life threatening condition too. I felt like killing myself when I suspected she was lying about the condition to gain my trust and manipulate me. I feel like she's saying all these things to gain trust and somehow ruin my life in a way. (A MGTOW post said about how women "Lie" about health conditions to gain sympathy)

And moreover, I'm not a desperate or unattractive guy. I'm 6'1 ,200 pounds athletic, I speak 4 languages (2 in work proficiency), well read, have hobbies, etc. I've had girls ask me out and I turned them down because I didn't like them back. Even good looking ones. I turned them all down because none of them were actually intelligent and funny. This girl is the first person I'm having real feelings for and it's scary.

I really really really like this girl (she's not that attractive, probably a 5/10 but because she's funny, intelligent, etc.im starting to LOVE the way she looks) I like everything about her. Her fashion sense, she's intelligent, smart, funny, speaks many languages, etc. She's said she likes me too but I have a really bad feeling about this.

I think I made a huge mistake by confessing that I like her. Will she play me for being too caring? I'm literally having panic attacks when I think about her. Redpill convinced me that I'm a Beta male and I have nightmares about her ruining my life. I need help. Please.