I've been watching a lot of self-improvement stuff for the past year and I starting to realize how bitter I am towards it

My first time it's seriously self-improvement did help me a lot but as I have stated before it just did not last especially with the amount of work I put in.

People keep saying how unattractive it is to be self-pitying and complaining and not trying but I don't think they really understand what it's like to do all of that and succeed just for a little bit but then to fail all over again

Even at this moment I'm thinking about cleaning my room or saving $20 or doing a couple of push-ups before work but I keep telling myself it's just useless because these little acts aren't going to change much

And I do get it and I do get that consistency is important as once again I used to be the type of guy to tell everybody to go self improve and go to the gym and stuff but looking back it was so naive and I don't know what to do at this moment

I was super depressed in super hateful and it was maybe four months into my self-improvement before I finally was able to have a good day and that is a good thing but that feel good feeling is so far away after so much Blood Sweat and Tears and I'm asking myself if it's even worth it

I need to quit my job to get a better one but I have no transportation to get there and no other job to help Supply any money towards savings to get any better footing in life and it feels like I'm just working in circles

I have so much drive before I dropped of college. I was working two jobs and I was staying up all night working on my artwork thinking it was going to pay off but now I'm almost 24 and I'm still the loser and I keep thinking to myself am I going to be 35 before I finally feel secure enough to be a dating option?

Is it really going to take me almost a decade to finally feel okay or to finally be seen as possible by women