How did you deal with the loss of your mother?

I've read stuff about how women and kids are valued for existing and how your mother is the only woman who will love you unconditionally no matter what etc.

But now that I'm a bit older it sort of just has been internalised this message, without my mother I'm pretty much alone. No woman or person will ever really love me for who I am and no person will be the one there for me. My mum is eventually going to die, and I hope I'm strong enough to deal with it by then. But how have other redpillers dealt with this?

I want to be emotionally strong enough for an event like this.