Man I feel fucked. I worked so hard on myself and got wrecked by a stage 10 demon. Went on dates fucked and got needy. Sending multiple texts and getting ignored. Then she sent a video which I’m assuming was talking about how she got railed by someone for 2 and a half hours. I didn’t catch it at first and laughed it off.

Then came my suspicions and then rage. I Said some fucked up shit. She called me crazy and I apologized and admitted I became attached.

I feel broken. She has bdp, tattoos, is a slut, broken family. Can’t believe myself.

I need advice really fucking bad. I feel like she’s going to fuck up my reputation/life/social status.

Lost frame atrociously and can’t figure out a way to forgive myself.

Before that saw her and had strong frame. But fucked up over text.