There nothing that makes me more depressed than going on a night out from 8pm to 6am approaching women and going home drunk af with nothing but rejection. Going hone to a life where I have superficial friends, parents who don't love me, sister who has more important things going on.... I have nothing.

And I've been doing this ever single weekend for nearly a year now, sometimes twice in a weekend... I'm rotten. All my hobbies - playing piano, composing music, painting, drawing, video game,movies, tv shows, lifting weights in gym, all of it ik numb to. Why shouldn't I self delete?