Hey guys,

Not far off the plunge it seems. Dead life together after decade of marriage and 17ish together.

Alas the 2 kids make it a lot harder for a brea, and despite the anger/pity at times I feel for her I do want the best for kids always. There was also a time I loved her and it's not like she isn't a good mother, just a shit partner.

All I do is go to work all day/do bookwork/prep my lists/jobs in evenings. Between then I deal with kid drop off and pick ups/as much off time as I can with then or trying to take things off wife's plate. Making lunches, breakfasts, playing with bath time teeth brush ect with them.

Yet all I get hit with is I do bare minimum or not enough. I get no guidance or get whined at about her mental load. But where's her giving a fuck about mine?

Yeah I don't do 50% at home. However, I do dishes and laundry tons, vacuum when I notice, wipe counters. I provide for everyone while she sorta works a few hrs here and there. I did about 200k last year cause I do 100% of the work. I run my own buisness with 0 help now. I do nothing with my evenings outside of home really or work beyond a rare evening with a buddy who I work around so it just becomes a buisness meeting with a beer. I own the place we live that's 4x since I bought it 10 years ago despite Herr laughing bout how it will never be worth the mil I said it would.

I'm not perfect, I wasn't the best I could have been as I figured things out. I'm sure I do stupid things and not enough in many senses. I don't always remember everything. I do enjoy my craft beers probably too much once home after at this point but didn't start out that way.... But I sure how many days in a row can you ask if they want to hang out or do anything but them find stuff to do instead before who cares?

Basically how do you even start dating at this point again? I sure miss intimacy in any sense sadly or having someone caringly ask about my day and life. I'm so far removed and in the trades it's a bunch of guys and well I'd love the duel income I'm not particularly a fan of more than my weiner.......

Reply or not just kinda wanted to rant. Thanks for reading if you did.