Idk where to write this so I thought I'd come to this community for some advice.

I was in a long term relationship throughout my teen years and early 20s, nearly 23 now. We were engaged, had rings, a house together, the whole 'young love' thing. Then, around 6 months ago now, I started experiencing some pretty intense mental health issues. The medication made me a zombie and I drifted away mentally. essentially ending the relationship by being completely absent minded.

She psychically assaulted me, kicked me out of our shared house since she made more money, stole a lot of my valuables and immediately hooked up with one of our mutual friends. Lmao.

I'm back with my dad now it's humiliating. I ruminate about what happened constantly, remaining events which happened months and months ago but where I actually stand up for myself. She bad mouthed me to most of our mutual friends so my support network has been fragmrnted. I've always been a bit anxious, but now I'm jumpy in a way I just wasn't before. I'm paranoid n scatterbrained and angry.

Maybe if we were a bit older it would've been better handled. I dunno. I just don't know how to move on. I feel so much worse off that when I started the relationship. It makes me so upset.