Well, just spent most of day moving my now ex things out of our house, into her new apartment. Just put my son to sleep on mattresses on floor, since we sold our old bed and I am moving out in 3 weeks.

Feels unreal / strange / sad. It was a "clean" breakup, since she no longer needed / wanted a partner but just wanted to be a mother. I didn't want to be a "roommate" in my own house.

I am mostly sad on my sons behalf. Having a "perfect" family / house. Pool, swings, trampoline and big house. Moving into 2 small apartments. I just want him to be happy.

He is taking it like a champ. He is sleeping with me right now, but we are going with 50/50, equal time with both. Right now just staying in the house not to change everything in 1 day.

I don't even know what to write, I am so lost about how to handle the next couple of weeks. Tomorrow he is going to spent the day in his moms new apartment and asked me if I could come and stay. I really have no idea what to say / do in that case. I told him I think I had to work / some random lame excuse and I would see if it was possible. But I can't say yes without mothers accept. If it stood to me I would spend all my time with him. And it is making me die inside.

The way I am feeling right now even when I have my son is horrible. Mostly just the fear for the days / nights I don't have him.

To all you dads out there take care of your self and your family !