It’s been a year since the separation. I have come to terms with the relationship ending. The only thing that gets to me is having kids with her. My girls are my world don’t get me wrong. The regret of having them with someone who would turn parenting into a shared responsibility and not the purpose of their life is just too much. I literally grieve over the thought. I sit numb at first and just cry. I understand that they will be ok and I have to be strong. But to downgrade their experience in this world to week on week off relationships with each parent is demeaning. I was super cautious about kids, even had girlfriends get abortions in my twenties; they would have probably been better mothers. Idk. Hurts man.