Well, thank you for all of you kind men who are looking out for a random brother online. It’s been 5 days since my wife and daughter haven’t been in my life. I was a total mess, then just a sobbing son of a bitch, then I was able to someone get tasks done.

After all, I am bracing my life as the one without my daughter. She’s too young to remember me and as much as I hope to get a good outcome out of the custody case, if I don’t and if my daughter grows up to distant me because she didn’t spend enough time around me, I know I tried but would always bless her with all my heart she will have a great life. I will never forget that one day she ran to me and yelled daddy to give me a hug.

But today I feel better. It’s not because I’m not in pain. I’ve been sleeping few hours a day and for a huge foodie, I haven’t had a proper meal since, I dropped 9 lbs in 5 days. But, but, I am gonna try to move on. It won’t happen overnight but I am gonna be strong. Yes, it sounds ridiculous to sound like I’m giving up so quick. But the law is the law. When endless lawyers either didn’t want to take the case or saying I don’t have a good chance, or if you pay me I can see if I can make you see your daughter virtually in a couple months, hopes are vanishing. I’m going to try everything I can. I won’t give up. But today I feel better because life still goes on and I gotta get mine going too. Maybe I’ll go back to work tomorrow.

Thanks again for everyone. I hope everyone is doing well and taking divorce better than I am.