Is been over 2 years since we split and almost one year since the actual divorce and I still catch my self thinking about us. The divorce was starting to get messy, she reaped half of my assets while she finished her degree living off of me.

The divorce process was dragging because it took us a while to finally file, a year later from separating she’s rushing me to sign the divorce. Coming up with excuses as to why i needed to do it soon, to find out later down the road she was pregnant and didn’t want to give birth while still legally married to me.

For one I guess I’m glad she didn’t give birth while still been married to me because I would be liable for child support. But another side of me feels betrayed. I pretty much gave her a head start at a new life with the money I have to give her from the divorce and I get repaid with her getting knocked up by some random guy.

This has damage the way I view woman I found an amazing girl we’ve been dating for a year now makes more money then me, cooks cleans takes care of my needs yet I don’t want to go through it all again of giving my self to a woman that’s going to make a 180 down the road. There’s no point behind this post really I just wanted to share how the divorce is still affecting me while my ex is probably living a new life with a kid and probably thinks poorly of me.