I have been reading some posts and it's nice to see some similar situations. For me covid basically helped kill my marriage. I've only been married for 7 years but during this time my career has taken off and at each promotion or raise I took on more responsibilities at home and my wife dropped some.

At this point I pay all of our bills, my wife hasn't worked a full week since covid began, and we don't have kids. We may have sex once every month or month and a half and typically that consist of her bending over so I can do my thing while she reads reddit. That shit is so much of a self esteem killer. When I brought it up how it hurts my feelings I'm the asshole.

And throughout the day is bitching at me for one thing after another to the point that I resent her and I feel like the only reason she is here is she doesn't have to pay any bills. It's weird that I would prefer to be alone at this point. So I've asked her to move cause it's obviously over. And I'm the biggest piece of shit for pulling the rug out from under her despite I have been telling her the entire time to be less dependent on me. I've agreed to transfer my car to her and help payments until she gets on her feet. She has stated that she can move in with a family member in the past so I told her to go ahead and do that. As far as I'm concerned we are done. I don't care what she does, where she is at, or who she is with. I just want her out of my house so I can get the clock running on the 1 year separation needed in my state. When I leave the house I'm getting text asking where am I? What are you doing? It's never anything exciting but I'm irritated that it's even being asked. Here is someone who obviously doesn't want me but is worried as hell that someone else might. Personally after the end of any relationship it usually takes me a long time before I'm willing to talk to anyone else. After my 1st divorce I didn't so much as hug another woman for 2 or 3 years. I really just want to move on. I almost feel like she is going to try to play this as we still live together but aren't together. I would rather cut my dick off and die of blood loss before I would let that happen. She hasn't even kissed me in over 3 years. And I'm extremely irritated that she doesn't pay any bills, doesn't physically show me any affection but somehow feels like I'm the bad guy and an opportunist for wanting out. Like why stay in a relationship when there is absolutely no benefit? Sorry for the long winded post but I've been so isolated from friends and family that all these feelings just fester.