This week my wife told me we have grown apart and she doesn’t feel the connection with me that she used to. I can’t say it happened out of nowhere, but I at least thought we were happy. We still joked and played. She is not affectionate, she is cold and not playful with our kids so I take up all those responsibilities. I would try and hug, slap her ass, want to have sex. But all were rebuffed.

We had this same situation about two years ago when I wanted to separate and she said she would do better. Nothing has changed, there’s no affair on either of ours. But we have simply grown apart.

I don’t even know what the next step is as I do not want to leave my children with such a cold person. She’s a great mom other than that, but I know how the legal system works. I don’t want to look for an apartment, I don’t want to pay child support, this is going to wreck me.

Life is too short to live in a loveless, sexless marriage I know that. But just looking down the horizon and I can’t help but be depressed.

It’s literally the beginning but I’m starting to feel depressed.