Hello everyone. I’ve been separated from my STBXW for about a year now and caught up in a contested divorce for custody and finances. We were only married for 4 years and have a daughter who is 4 years old. I was always a provider and bought us a house, paid off all her debt including a sizable amount in student loans (>100k) . Did improvements to the house and gave us a very comfortable lifestyle. I did my best to be there for her when she was pregnant and after we had our child. I was the sole provider for 2 cats and 2 dogs, did all the grocery shopping, and did all maintenance and work outside of the house. I did the dishes (not up to her standard) and constantly picked up the house. She felt like my contributions were not good enough and said she wanted a “partner” and not a child. I admittedly numbed myself with weed during Covid but have a good job making good money. She ended up moving out around a year ago and has started dating someone. It hurt like I was kicked in the stomach when I heard she was dating. I’ve been seeing someone casually but honestly all I want is her back and to see my kid everyday. This is not the life I would want. My parents have been married since they were young as well as my grandparents and all other members of my family. It’s hard not to feel like a loser. I wanted more kids but don’t want to have a larger broken family. I’m almost 40. Just came here to vent but life has been very hard. She’s stopping me from having 50/50 and is coming after money from the house. She makes a sizable amount more money than I do. At this point I would never remarry with any type of assets because it’s not worth it to lose them. I hate this and it’s been a very very hard road. Hope you find the strength in your situation to keep moving in the right direction.