Maybe it’s because I’m so new to this whole self respect thing. I was talking to a guy for 2 months during quarantine. He wanted to meet but I didn’t because of the pandemic obviously and he seemed down to wait. Now that things are starting to open I suggested a hike. Maybe this was stupid on my part.

This man has excuse after excuse, “I get off work late”, “I have to work early”, “my parents won’t let me leave”. If you want more I have plenty more. Maybe it’s because we’re both 22 and young and stupid. I just can’t deal with this anymore.

So I guess the reason for this post. How did y’all get comfortable being single? I can’t even be in my apartment alone for longer than 5 minutes before feeling soul crushingly lonely. I just want some help. I want to enjoy my youth! Logically I know I shouldn’t be chasing boys. I just graduated, moved into my own place, have a job (not my dream job but it pays the bills). How do y’all do it? How do you keep up the confidence? How do you battle the loneliness? Just how do you embrace being single and loving it?