I would not go online to make friends. That's how I met you.

I would not let you see my picture. That's how you knew my heritage and started to chase me relentlessly. I should have seen the yellow fever fetish on you then.

I would not come back to you after you broke my heart the first time. You wrote me a long, heartfelt letter, and my heart melted. I should have run far far away then..

I would not tolerate your gaming habits. You lied to me when you said I will be your priority. That you loved me more than your games and your buddies combined.

I would not let my heart swayed when you said I'm your everything. I should have seen the Lovebombing sign and how you always pressured me to say "I love you" back. Even though my heart had always doubted my own feelings for you.

I would not let myself to drown in your presence, to the point I forgot about loving myself. You called me needy and clingy because of that. I should have love myself more.

I would not let myself beg for you to come back after you said you're done. You said you don't love me anymore and that you're leaving. I should have walk away with my head held high.

But if I could turn back time, I would slap my self for falling in love with you.

Because now I know, my heart is fragile, and I am struggling to be strong again after you broke it to pieces and you walk away fine.

Help me, ladies. Please lend me your strength. For I need my queens behind my back. And let me be whole again.

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Edit: thank you for all of your messages and replies. I took the time to reply each of you, I hope you can see them.

He blocked me after he broke up with me. I felt so insulted to think of his action because I feel insulted as if he thought that I would be those crazy, stalker ex-gf, when all I did was only crying for him.

After all I have done for him, and for him to treat me this low, is truly an eye opener.

But I did the same thing to him, I deleted his number, and blocked all of his social media.