Halloween here in the US tonight.

As a former blue pill OG with a young daughter tonight is just brutal. A parade of kids trick or treating my neighborhood since the sun went down.

I have the same shitty deal most dads have which includes all of 4 days a month with my own child, so of course she isn't here. That's bad enough, but mom has decided she's now an ultra conservative christian, and Halloween is forbidden apparently, so my daughter gets none of it.

All these bright little smiling faces grabbing candy, in their proudly displayed costumes... it's pretty painful frankly.

I love my kids very much and consider them my responsibility, and I'm failing at that through no fault of my own.

It's a very raw and deep seated pain I can't really describe properly. I don't actually want to describe it because I don't want any of you fine people to know... ever.

tldr:

Don't get married.

Don't cohabitate.

Do not be me.

Go your own way gentlemen.

edit: You guys are the best. I could never share this with anyone else but a rare few friends and my son.

Thank You.