To everyone who isn't even in the anger phase yet, you're at the end of 'years of anguish and possibly depression' phase. Years of rejection, feeling her contempt and disgust and disinterest. Being lied to. 'Of course I still love you. No honey, I like your body just fine. I'm just tired. If you would just help out around the house more then I'd be happy'.

Maybe your thoughts turn darker. 'I can't take this any more. No-one would miss me. She wouldn't even notice. The kids will be fine'.

This week's episode of The Blacklist (3x19), Reddington's (James Spader) monologue is particularly enthralling. Well ok every time he speaks it's enthralling.

“Have you ever seen the aftermath of a suicide bomber? I have. I was meeting two associates at a restaurant in Tel Aviv. As my car was pulling up, a twenty year old Palestinian entered the restaurant and detonated a vest wired with C4.

The shockwave knocked me flat, blew out my eardrums; I couldn't hear. The smoke.. it was like being underwater. I went inside – a nightmare. Blood, parts of people.. You could tell where he was standing when the vest blew. It was like.. a perfect circle of death.

There was almost nothing left of the people closest to him. 17 dead, 46 injured. Blown to pieces. The closer they were to the bomber, the more horrific the effect. That's every suicide. Every single one.

An act of terror, perpetrated against everyone who's ever known you. Everyone who's ever loved you. The people closest to you, the ones who cherish you, are the ones who suffer the most pain, the most damage. Why would you do that? Why would you do that to people who love you?”

“I have no choice”.

“There's always a choice”.