(This is a personal vent, nobody will understand the full context or backstory but I just need to vent about it somewhere.)
We met again today and she was touching me weirdly all the time
Every time I tell her that I dont like the way she pets my back, the way she grabs my hips, or the way she touches my arms she always says "well I just haven't seen you in a while. I just miss you yk?"
I'm slowly starting to hate her
Yeah I get it, now you live further away and you go to a diffrent highschool, you might miss a old friend, but when I tell you to stop, you stop.
I hated the way you were touching me a year ago and I still hate it now. If you just like me, say it instead of being a coward. Touching a guy weirdly without his consent doesn't show you're confident, it just shows that you're a cunt.
And the way she said she feels bad for me is just... it felt so gross. "Well... i've heard what Amelia did.. And you know.. I feel bad for you.." doesn't hit right when you're constantly rubbing my body.
I don't want to tell her the truth about me. I KNOW she has a thing for me. She'll get angry and tell all of my friends. They'll abandon me. They'll make fun of me. They'll think i'm disqusting. But at the same time if i don't tell her she'll continue trying to get me to like her.
I'm just not intrested. I dont like women. I never really did. Just because I "don't act gay" or "dont look gay" doesnt mean shit. Even if I liked girls I wouldnt be into her. She's slowly making me dislike her, and myself.
I dont know if I should be ok with what she's doing or not. Alot of guys would be jelaous of me, wouldnt they.
Just stop acting weird around me
You used to be my friend, I dont want to hate you