Hey. It's been over a year since i posed here. I guess this vent can double as an update to what's been going on in my life:

I've come to realise that my father has always been a prideful, stubborn, controlling, narcissistic son of a bitch (sorry grandma).

Nothing I have I have done has ever been good enough for him, no matter how much I try to impress him. Not my marks, not the fact that I have a foot in the door in my career, not that I actually have friends I can be proud of, none of that shit.

He seems to think I spend all my time and attention gamimg and fooling around with my friends. People who actually know me on a name basis know that it isn't true.

I have a job. I studied hard at school. I have friends. I am a massive introvert so I never feel the need to go out much, yet he interprets it as social dysfunction

And now he has the gall to tell me that I am a dysfunctional child. That I can't take any criticism towards me. I am a massive wierdo, no doubt about that, but my loved ones know that's all far from the truth. Especially the criticism part. To top it off, he decided to insult my friends and say that they're not my real friends, despite the fact that I've known them for 9 years now, and have always supported me through thick and thin

And now I finally decided, after 22 long years, to stand up for myself. The dude doesn't know that 4 years is a long time and I'm almost a completely different person from when he decided to fuck off to Cape Town for a job which basically gives him free reign to be the controlling narcissist to impressionable young adults

He invalidates all my experiences up to this point and and after a long time of going no where with our argument, he told me to go and take my pride with me.

I will do exactly that, because I am making a declaration: I am done trying to please him. I'm done living his life. Now, I will finally live my life when he fucks off back to CT and I have space to be myself.

Excuse the formatting. Adrenaline is still running on high.