Or am I in so hopeless life situation that every tip sound like insult, nothing actually helps I only grow more anger inside of me.

For 99% I feel like people are projecting their of lives onto me, not carrying how I actually feel or things about it.

I know that therapy probably would be best option in my situation, but also when I can't get one I feel so hopeless. Like having actually zero money makes your bad mental health be 100% guarantee that you will just commit suicide in future.