Im not sure I want to live, anymore.

Most of the women that have been a part of my life have mistreated me, robbed me, emotionally and physically abused me...and all I want is a family. I'm not some incel, getting laid is easy. I don't WANT sex, not if that's all the package comes with. I want genuine, deep affection from a woman I can contend with. It's all I've ever wanted. From my experience, I'm not sure this generation of women are capable of anything but narcissism.