Hello redpill wives. I desperately need help.

All I wanted for Christmas was an engagement ring. I have given this man a daughter and a son.

I was not a good girlfriend until I became pregnant with our daughter 4 years ago. I tried so hard, I left University, worked, cooked and cleaned the best I could. We lived with his parents all through my pregnancy and the first couple years of our daughter's life. We both worked and saved for a home deposit.

A year ago we bought our first home together and I've been a diligent STAHM since. Cooking dinner almost ever night (at least 6 days a week), packing his work lunch and serving a warm breakfast on weekends. I love our children dearly.

From the beginning of the pregnancy with my son we have been disconnected with our intimacy. Now that I'm no longer pregnant I have tried to re-engage. He will only accept oral for himself with a lot of work from my end. It has been difficult. Last night was New Year's in Aus, I encouraged him to go out on the town with friends from work. With a girl that he said called HERSELF a slut. Today he has been more distant than ever, not wanting to talk about last night. I found several long ginger hairs in the bathtub. I don't know any red-heads. I have no engagement ring either, despite my requests.

I will not discuss this with him. I want to know how to enter Nun-mode with children. Please link me resources for this. I will not leave, but I do need to do some self work.

Please. Help me.