Hi all,

So I’ve been posting a lot this week about my recent break up. I was feeling positive and strong about it all, a few days in I am not anymore.

I am beyond exhausted. I have been travelling 3-4 hours a day to sort my life out (flat/job) and tonight I just want to curl into a ball and cry. I am so tired of talking to everyone, so tired of explaining everything and so tired of just this weird transitional phase.

My bf wanted to meet yesterday so I could give him some stuff back. I refused to go to his house and told him to meet me in a public place. He wanted to apologise so we talked and talked and talked and he wanted me to come back. He said he will change and we can have one last chance, if he doesn’t change, I walk.

I told him it doesn’t just happen like that, I need time and I sure am not coming back right away. I was basically homeless, resource less and boyfriend less overnight. Asking people to stay at theirs and asking the council about benefits isn’t something I take lightly.

He said he never thought I would go ahead and make plans to essentially live a life without me. I don’t know what he expected to be honest, I had to act fast.

He was incredibly sorry, and I could tell he regretted what he did. He wanted me to lay out all my concerns and he addressed them all with solutions.

He said he will give me time, but he wants me back.

I have been determined to find a flat and move on, and perhaps if I see he’s changed to consider going back to him, but right now, I just want to go to him and be held. I am so friggin tired and so sad things are this way. I wish he realised sooner before all this damage was done.

Is he able to change?

Has anyone successfully reconciled?

Am I out of my mind for even thinking about this?

Thank you as always. You wonderful people have been so much help to me.