There is a program I really want to do and my captain (still pretty new relationship) offered to help me plan out the finances and maybe even pitch in. I said thank you but changed the subject. I've been 100% self-sufficient since 17 and the idea of depending on someone scares me for some reason. I let him lead in things that involve the both of us but never my personal goals/problems that require more than just advice. I accidentally saw a text b/w him and someone about me and the program and how to bring it up again. He seems really adamant about helping me do the program and I'm really appreciative but there's a mental block I have about accepting any help.