I've been reading up on this sub. Honestly I'm convinced the theories argued here are true, however I find this to be especially depressing. It's to the point where I almost want to die.

I have been in a LTR for about two years now. There was only one hiccup in our relationship and that was early on (within the first three months). My girlfriend (19) want on a trip to Ireland with her close friends for a couple weeks. I was happy for her at the time, I wanted her to see and experience other parts of the world. One night during her stay they decided to go to the bar. When she told me I was a bit worried, but I trusted her Because she assured me she was loyal. Later that night I get a call from her and she is crying hysterically. She was telling me how I would never forgive her, but that someone at the bar had forced themselves on her and kissed her. She assured me that she didn't want it and that she didn't kiss him back. To this day I tell her that I trust her and that I don't doubt her on the events of that night, but deep down I have my doubts.

Reading this sub and learning about the "hamster wheel" is really getting me thinking and worried. I don't know what to think anymore.