The N-Count - why care?

Hey TRP,

I've been lurking for a while, reading up on the sidebar and absorbing a lot from you guys. It's been said before, but I wish I'd had the foresight to read TRP in college. I'm 26 now, building my body and my career, and internalizing the lessons I've read here to make my life better. The last few months have been great.

There's one thing that hasn't lined up for me that I want to discuss run by you guys - the feelings towards a woman's n-count.

I don't find myself obsessing over a woman's sexual past, or really even thinking about it. If I've already gotten her into bed, it doesn't make a difference to me whose bed she was in before. Where does the aversion to a high partner count come from? There's something of an allergy I see on TRP to the idea of a woman who's fucked a lot of guys in the past, especially when that woman comes back afterward in an attempt to make you her BB. I get the natural insult there - she didn't care about me when I wanted her, and now that I'm rich/successful and she's running out of steam, her tune has changed. It's insincere, absolutely. It's conniving and shitty. But I don't see a reason to care.

If a girl comes around offering sex when she didn't before, I find myself indifferent to her true motives, even more so now that I'm aware what they could be. So she fucked a lot of guys - barring a natural urge to make sure her body isn't riddled with STDs, I kind of like it. Sluts are great, they're easy and fun. It doesn't matter to me that she's only interested because she wants a shot at my wallet. I like the fact that she's desperate for something and is spreading her legs once again. I like the challenge of fucking her better than the last guy(s) did. I like making all the reasons and motives and deception dissolve as I pound her and get everything that I want.

I think I've swallowed some parts of the pill more readily than others. Marriage will never happen in my life. I watched my mother cycle through enough men to turn me off to the idea at a young age, and reading TRP's constant refrain again marriage years later was welcome and supportive for me to see. I'll never put a ring on a woman's finger. The urge doesn't exist. Maybe that makes it easier to accept that women are out for themselves, and they'll do what they need to in order to get what they want. I don't see chaste girls and long for their purity, like it exists. I think the aversion to slutty women is some function of a common male desire for chaste, faithful, pure women who pair bond and want the best for their men, which is likely some function of a desire to know your offspring are in fact yours. That's the desire/aversion complex I'm trying to understand, because I don't share it. It might be entirely because I plan to never marry or reproduce. That would make sense to me.

I've been with inexperienced women before, and it's kind of a turn off. I don't want to be your teacher. I don't want to take your innocence, as if it were ever there. I want you to know how to be a good girl in bed before getting into bed with me. A lot of guys don't feel this way, and that's fine. I'm here to dissect my own impulses and try to uncover what I suspect to be deep blue pill programming in myself. I don't want a wife and I don't want kids, so it makes sense that requisites for a good wife and mother don't matter much to me. I'm just trying to figure out if there's more to it than that, because the disgust I see here doesn't line up for me. Why is a high n-count disgusting? For a potential mother and wife, yes, not a great resume item. But to all of us bachelors here who shouldn't be getting married anyway - why care?

If it helps you understand me better, I'm in a casual LTR right now with an old friend of mine. Incidentally, I took her virginity, and I've gotten kind of bored with her in bed. I want to go back out and fuck sluts. Even though she's actually a wonderfully submissive partner who doesn't give me any shit. She's my age, has a job of her own, no ex boyfriend baggage that I know of, and wants my dick all the time. It's just a weird feeling to have what most guys on here say they want, and then realize I'm getting bored of it. I don't want to get locked down, and she knows it well. I just want to fuck sluts. Am I missing something?

Thanks for reading.