Summary : Doubt my father is really my father based on some information provided in body.

Body : This has been on my mind for weeks now. After reading certain post on TRP on how father discovered his boy is not his after the test. I am inspired to take the test.

My father or the person whom I call my father is a beta provider to my 9/10 mother. I would rate my father 6/10. Even now when she is 50, she gets hit by men. So one can assume she was something in her prime years.

Here are the pieces of information that has made me doubt why my father may not be my father.

1) I am tall. Neither of my parents are tall. I am 6'1. my father would be somewhere around 5'7 and my mother shorter than that.

2) Relatives from my father's side never accepted me. Severe neglect from grandmother and aunts made me question a lot of things. Mostly because my siblings and cousins would get a lot of attention and I wouldnt. Some day I spoke about it to my mother and she said that they dont think you are your father's son. I didnt ask anything further because i didnt know what to ask and I was in my early teenage years. But I remember that conversation.

3) My mother has cheated on my father. Now I dont want anyone to pass any shitty comments on it, its already tough for me to write something like this. Call me a beta if u will. I know that she has because my father would leave for the work and some guy would come home in the afternoon. I used to be home at afternoon as i was in morning school and my siblings in aftrnoon school. So I have seen things that I cant seem to forget even though that has happened when I was a little kid.

4) My mother and father got arranged marriage because thats how it was where we lived and leaving marriage was not a possibiity because society would shame the woman the most. Apparetly my mom once told me that there was a guy in her college who used to like her but they couldnt get married because my mom's parent got her married to my dad and she couldnt say no. And she couldnt leave because of the stigma from society.

I am 22 right now. A fresh graduate. Hardworking, good looking, moderately earning professional. I have my goals and everything in place but this has got me thinking for some time now, especially after reading some post on TRP. And I don't even know what good it will do me. I am curious. Would be good with some advice.

Lesson Learned : No lesson learned as far as sexual strategies are concerned. But being sure of who your father is, is a good thing and maybe that can help explain certain situations in your life.

p.s. English is not first language, so pardon me for any errors.

Edit : removed bcoz and coz. Will take care not write the way I text from my phone. Besides I was drunk last night and wasn't sure if I wanted to post this personal account. I will be taking the DNA test and will get my father's sample surreptitously and won't let him know the result. I know many of you guys have argued that wouldnt I want to know? But the thing is..if my father had a doubt and wanted to know, he could have already done something like that. I am doing it for my own sake. I am divided and uncertain at the moment and that DNA test will help me determine my identity and roots. Atleast I want to think that it will.