Lately I’ve been feeling like I’m not making any progress. Feeling really stagnant. But I surprised myself last night.

Went out clubbing. Before that I got into a fight with the mom so that somewhat helped to put me in a dgaf kinda state.

Approached these two girls that were smoking outside (they didn’t even know each other but stayed together the entire night) and my mind just changed gears. Ended up making out with the one I was attracted to after the club closed. She was a cute petite brunette in some hot leggings. The other girl was cute too.

Talked to a bunch of people. Made some friends (didn’t get any of their numbers, it was nice though)

We went to eat later after the club. We were sitting down, the other girl tells me I like you, do you like me and I just said a little and she cracked up. She kept asking me why I was looking at her like that (strong unwavering eye contact). And more questions about why I didn’t like her and why I was mean to her lol. I wasn’t really paying attention to her although I gave her the occasional wink and touched her here and there.

They were sitting across me and heard them say he probably has a big dick. I had my hand on my cheek looking all bored and nonchalantly replied I do. Saw both their eyes light up.

I was really in my zone. Liked myself and how I was feeling last night.

Couldn’t pull because I left my car at home. So I just enjoyed my small victories.

The girl I was initially attracted to left. Felt bummed, never got her number but whatever.

So a while later I move to the table behind and sit behind the girl that kept bothering me asking me if I like her and shit. I started rubbing her neck, she was apparently on the phone with her bf or something telling her I love you, I miss you while my hands was massaging her neck, playing with her hair. I got close to fondling her boobs and she didn’t nudge. Lmao girls... after the phone call, she turns around and tells me wow your hand feels really good massaging me. I abruptly stopped after a while cause I wasn’t really feeling it and even if I went forward with it. I wouldn’t have been able to take her anywhere.

Starting to realize how easy it is to actually get girls. Look good. Talk to them. Treat them like little kids. Be playful. Touch them. Don’t be too much in your head and let things naturally flow.

Sharpening my killer instinct one step at a time.

Fuck you fears, fuck you insecurities, fuck you anxiety, fuck you awkwardness.