So I’ve been lurking for about a good year now. Started the sidebar then stopped. Went through hell and back with my wife and our marriage. It’s gotten to the point where I exploded a few days ago and said I wanted a divorce. She cries about it for a few days. We went on a date last night. Got home and I told her I didn’t really want a divorce but, now she says she thinks it’s for the best. What a blow to the ego. I feel like she has one up on me now. I didn’t beg and plead I just told her that was fine and it probably is for the best. We’re cordial right now. Came back to this community so I can get my shit together once and for all. I’m tired of being a beta bitch. Do I want to divorce? No. But, I know the shit I’ve been doing won’t keep me married for long. I’m at the point where need to change for my marriage or my new life as a divorcee. So no more lurking. Time to implement action and stop being a whiny beta bitch.