Guys, long story short i still have bad oneitis for my ex. I dated this girl for 7 months, she was my first girlfriend and i went full beta totally in love with her. Man, i don't think i ever loved something or anythng that much in my entire life. She was like pure crack to me. She was also alittle crazy and crazy in bed.

Long story short, our break up was bad, i begged for her back stalked her acted psycho yada yada she aint ever coming back.

Anyway i had relapse and looked at her social media the other day and saw her on all these dates with another guy and i honestly nearly cried. I want to be with her. I literally cried. 1 year later i cry over a 7 month relationship with a girl. I don't know why i'm so emotional. The entire day today i felt so horrible. I wasn't myself, almost felt suicidal.

The thing is i've lost my aesthetics. I used to be very good looking but now my hair is fucked and receded so i take finasteride but now its made my face puffy and i jst look liek shit. I also had some medical conditions and lost my muscle. Now i can't even get any women. Now i'm ugly. Everyday i'm sad.

Now i understand, she's sucking some other duds cock, she's just my turn. I understand all that, yet i still miss her guys. I miss her so much. THe sex, the fun, the companionshhip. now i'm just an ugly baldin guy man.