Because this is such a power trip from a lifetime as an incel and I could get used to this:

23 y/o. 178cm. 72kg.

Been on TRP for 4 months. I lift, eat healthy, and sleep 7-8 hours... about 80% of the time.

Met up with my FWB yesterday. While we were together, she saw me:

  • Greet a kid wearing a t-shirt from my old high school. I offered to hook him up with a couple of people who are doing what he wants to do for some insight.

  • Greet an HB8 I'd met a couple years ago. I introduced them to each other. The HB8 commented I looked good, lost weight and seem to be doing well. I gave her my phone and she put in her number.

  • A former client said hello to me at the movies. We talked briefly.

Social proof? Check.

Dread? Check.

And to top it off, we walk into the movie and she starts getting touchy-feely. So, I take her scarf and cover her up.

Then, I open her belt & pants, and start fingering her for half an hour in a room with 200 people, all of us watching the movie like nothing's happening.

No resistance from her at all. Just silence, a few shudders, and a lot of wetness.

At that moment, it really sunk in that as the man, I could "do what you want^TM" and she'd follow along happily.

After the movie, this conversation came up:

Her: That was crazy.

Me: I know, right? Why did [spoiler thing] happen?

Her: No, I mean... what happened.

Me: Oh! But yeah, you know you liked it.

Her: I did.

Me: (teasing) And you look soooo innocent.

Her: Nooo! You make me so bad. I really am innocent. My friends once asked me if I was a virgin because I'm so innocent. Blablablah.

So, was I actually Chad for an evening yesterday?

Also, what's the recommended plan for that HB8? A former client tried hooking us up, but I was too much of a BP bitch to act on it. So, she was once into me and I'm guessing I've re-sparked that given yesterday. How do I act on it?