On Sundays I like to take a little time to do some self-reflection on my current life and mental state and I came to a somewhat troubling realization today ;
I stay busy to avoid feeling my loneliness (no real friends/no girls/only family). Even in my 20s (now mid 30s) when I did have friends and girls I still felt lonely.
I have a ton of projects/goals on my plate right now ;
---full-time job
---side job as a licensed massage therapist
---Create one youtube video a week
---Training for swimming competitions
I enjoy doing all these things (except maybe my full-time job all the time) but sometimes I just wish I could go back to doing the bare minimum in life ; smoke weed/party every weekend, have a ton of close friends, and sleep with a ton of girls (now I only use escorts).
The guys I see living like this seem so care-free and happy but I just don't connect with that group of people anymore so I don't even think I could go back to it even if I wanted
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