So I went on a date with a 40 y/o women a few weeks ago who wasn’t really too attractive but it was close and I had nothing else to do so I went. The date was alright, nothing happened and we haven’t talked since. All I did was text here once on week after to see how she was doing, to which she never replied so I just deleted her phone number and moved on. And now thinking back about that girl I’m really proud of myself, I get this feeling that for once I was in control and technically I won even though I didn’t fuck her. The feeling of knowing I could have been desperate and insisted but I just moved on gives me such an ego boost and I feel happy for myself. I could say I enjoy this feeling more than having actual sex with her. I feel like, for once, I won the mind games by not pursuing and I’m addicted to this feeling, I have to do it more.

Anyway, I don’t know if I’m alone to feel that way, let me know if you do.