Because I am not. I've achieved everything I need to. As an asian guy (of 5"4') who's in Sweden, I've been with enough hot women to not regret much. But, as I progress. I find myself getting more and more depressed, asking what I want in life. This time, I dated the hottest asian (swede) girl, the only one during my time there. I destroyed myself after this. Nobody knows, but I'm playing it remarkably cool. I've since left the country, and I've not contacted her at all. I shot myself in the foot with this. She was absolutely besotted with me, I destroyed everything by being incredibly aloof and pushing her away because I was going away in a month time.

So now I'm back, and as I recall the things she said and did for me, I can't help being but wish things can be different. But alas she's a tad too young, and I have my career to focus on now. I don't even feel like playing the field no more, I'm done, all but with her. I want her back.

I am not happy, this is not one-itis, at least not in the sense that I'm doing anything to ruin what was between us. I'm done. I am not happy. Be careful of this path. Just saying.