Already mentioned it above, It's so damn frustrating! it has set up so many expectations, and it puts me so deep into my own head its driving me crazy!! what's worse is its now effecting my esteem. I just want to do so well so bad, but TMI has created some sort of blockage that has stopped me approaching all together :(sad times indeed. Great at dishing the advice, but when it comes to practising it myself. my mind hinders me.

I think it's about time I started working on myself again, stop motivating myself from desire or fear and start doing it from a place where I simply want to. distancing myself from the game may benefit me and keep me out of my head. But other than that you are a great community!