I'm 26 living in my car not doing shit with my life, spent the last 6 years living alone, making mistake after mistake with work, money and drugs, no family support. Left home because dad was alcoholic and had a traumatic childhood, dad now terminally sick, have no idea what I'm doing. No friends no support no one, and sometimes I feel like a victim because I try and try and things don't really change despite the effort.

I signed up for college again as I can get some grant $ and already have 2 yrs done but I have no clue what I'm doing or going for(doing accounting, previous IT). Been applying after I moved to a new city but nothing so far. It sucks being alone too I'm in shape and look decent just so down about life can't really get myself to talk to a girl, even with the trauma I can't connect with anyone, I'm a loner really. Been sober for ~6 months now and don't even feel better either just hate life.