Hey there, let me explain the title and my situation.I ll try and give a background first and then refer to the problem i have now.

EDIT: Ended up being a longer post than i intented and i rambled a bit maybe out of topic, but i am holding on the title.

So i am 23 finishing uni and i decided to be a distant student for the last couple of semesters for financial reasons. So i came back in my hometown for the time being, while i try and get my degree and start a business here.

I have never been the guy that was having great success with women and in fact i would say i was failing pretty damn hard. Up this far i wouldnt say i had a real relationship with a girl. Slept with a couple plus a prostitute (that was my first, my bestfriend payed for a brothel for my birthday at 18).

I got introduced to the PUA idea 2 years ago. Back then I memorised routines, studied human psychology, started reading books of various topic, studied sex, started writting on a notebook different routines magic tricks, lost 10kilos. Did my best to improve my image and self in everyway i could think of (even went vegan for a year believing that it would help keeping a clear mind).

But aside some make outs, many failed number closes, and a couple fingerings i did nothing. So at the time i thought to myself, it cant be me, so i blamed it on the fact that i studied in an island in a city with less than 8k people including the locals with the majority of them being men. (Engineering school).

BUT BOY WAS I FUCKIN WRONG. Recently i realised i am full of shit, not like a person, but more of the idea of what i believed i was. I 've been spending hours and hours playing freaking videogames staying at home losing contact from people around me whilst wanking my dick off. Lying to myself thinking i was confident because i would do some crazy shit in public in the style of jackass, screaming that i am gay in crowed squares, dressing in skirts and wrestling in public (i was in a group of people that did public "pranks", more like fools of our selfs, we still have a facebook group going). I was thinking, "hey i do that kind of crazy shit, approaching should be a piece of cake next time i do one.". And there i was later that weekend scared shitless to talk to a beautiful girl i saw.

So now, i find my self in a position where i am back home in my hometown which is like 180<sup>o</sup> different from the island i studied. There women to men would be 1/14 here it's 14/1. I am here for 3 weeks and have done nothing. I have no excuse and i am mad at myself. My oldfriends are not here anymore, they are either studying at a uni somewhere else or they moved away, and i really feel i need to establish new social circles/ new friends.

As part of my "rehab" i removed everygame from my computer, joined nofap, havent done it in 2 weeks which is huge for me, since I used to do it daily. Started working out again, i am trying to get hold of some people i used to interact with(classmates, or people from the local uni's), put ads to make or join a band. But honestly, i am scared shitless of every step of the wayi have to take. And i dont know which direction i should go with not only in meeting girls but meeting people.

Thanks in advance.

Apologies for any mistakes i am not a native speaker