I've been called a Sociopath. I've been called a Psychopath. The first time i've been called that word was in 2023 for the first time in my life.

You know what also happened during 2023? I officially broke up with my long-term girlfriend and started going out. I don't miss her at all. After so many years, I started visiting bars, clubs, travelling, drinking, and picking up girls.

Now 1 year and 6 months later, i'm reflecting as it's my birthday month. I'm thinking about what I accomplished and why I feel like there's a black hole where my heart is suppose to be. That whole started growing bigger and bigger since last year.

I have no conscience nor do I care about the feelings of the women I approach. The only goal I have in mind is attracting her. Afterwards, I move on.

Since 2023, i've been with more girls than I can count. Many fell hard for me and asked to date. I coldly rejected their advances as sex with them meant absolutely nothing to me. I felt nothing other than trying to finish a task at hand.

Since 2023, i've made more money than I know what to do with and honestly I thought that meant happiness but all it did was enable me to further my bad behaviour.

I have everything, but have nothing.

If you still feel something for the girls you attract, such as a relationship. Go for it. Don't become numb to love ;)