For context, I'm 20 yr old guy who in past 5-6 years have developed little social skills and have never been able to get laid naturally. I'm a good looking guy from a good looking family, I take care of body religiously, teeth, hair etc. But my self esteem and confidence has been horrible since HS, since then I've withdrawn from the world in a way. Up to 2 years after graduating still got no close friends, gfs, crazy life experiences

A week ago I decided I was gonna change my life. I've been talking to my womanizing cousin a lot and have learned so many things that now seems like common sense, with main thing I've learned being to try and love myself and not view pursuing woman as overly important. I even agreed to go clubbing with him yesterday and got disappointed when the plans were cancelled (Few months ago I'd be screaming with joy at cancelled plans to a club lol). We will be going this following Thursday and Sat night instead, and I'll be going to have fun for MYSELF without expectation of sex on my mind

Despite all this & finally feeling somewhat confident in myself and future for first time in long time, I'm more scared than I've ever been. Think I'm scared of giving it my all and it not making a difference. He (cuz) makes it look so EASY. New girl every other week it seems, so many stories hes told me already from his trips to New york miami puerto rico, and hes always been the likable funny one out of our duo, while I'm viewed as the stubborn anti social hothead. I'm tired of being a victim of my own circumstances. But idk what this fear means and I'm worried it will ruin my efforts in the long run. The guys here who have made it so they are getting laid regularly, the ones who learned to throw themselves out there just being themselves and ended up having sex pile in out of nowhere, what are you doing differently from the guys who changed themselves gain confidence etc. but try and fail all the same with seduction?